I just wanted to say thank you for all of the positive support and encouragement from yesterday’s blog. For the first time in a long time I have people in my life that I can depend on and it truly is an amazing feeling. So y’all get a huge pat on the back.
I had slept really well two nights ago with the help of a friend and was even able to get out of the apartment and on my way to work before 8am.
Today I will not get home from work until 10:30pm and it is putting a huge storm cloud over my head. I need to snap out of it if I hope to accomplish anything today.
I brought my husband with me last night to a kickball scrimmage. I am a very competitive person with a bit of a temper that usually doesn’t go so well for all involved when I am playing sports. He made it a point to compliment me after we left on how much I had calmed down in that regards. I explained to him that I did lose my temper once but felt absolutely HORRIBLE for it as soon as I did it. He told me that he was proud of the change that I had made. It felt great to have someone else recognize all of the hard work that I am putting into myself. And it even made me realize that I have in fact made some changes.
I am definitely still sad but it just dawned on me that I find myself filling up my calendar now because there are people that I want to spend time with more than the need to just not be by myself. I love my friends. I know that for a lot of you that doesn’t seem like some huge revelation but it truly is for me.
When I organized my previous Meetup group I didn’t do a very good job cultivating relationships. I focused on managing the group. I have learned that I can do both. I can constantly put together new events and make sure that new people are creating friendships and take this group of… 15? people that I love and continue to grow relationships… It’s one of my super powers. Aside from the steel hands that I apparently have…
If you have no idea what I am talking about, let’s just say I was told I rode the mechanical bull for over 3 minutes today. Alright. Fine. I will go get in the shower and get on with this day. Hope you all make it a great one. Lots of love.
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